Pacific Crest Trail- Tips and Thoughts For the First 700 Miles

Hey, future PCT thru-hikers! My name is Picnic. I hiked the PCT in 2017 before breaking my foot, and here are some random thoughts and tips, in no particular order, to help you out for the first 700 miles of the PCT. I hope they are helpful.

⁃ If you are going into Cabazon for In-n-Out, get an Uber or Lyft. The hitch is notoriously difficult and there are plenty of Uber/Lyft drivers heading towards L.A., especially in the evenings. It costs around 12$ each way for a 4 seater, so 6$ total both ways per person if you fill the car.

⁃ Make sure to have some kind of flavoring to add to water for when there’s a particularly bad-tasting source.

⁃ A good rule of thumb for water is 1 liter for every 5 miles, plus an extra liter for dry camping.

⁃ Make a plan on how long you want to stay in each town before you go in. A zero day is a day where you don’t hike, usually in a town getting lodging for two nights. A nero is when you hike, go into a town, spend the night, and get back on-trail the next day. However, just because you’re taking one zero, does not mean a zero only takes one day off of your hiking. With the time it takes to get in and out of a town, a nero is actually more like one full day off-trail, while a zero is actually two full days. This is because even on days when you’re getting off/on trail and so still making miles, it’s cutting into your hiking day 3-4 hours by the time you escape the vortex- and you probably won’t find a ride to trail early enough to start at your normal time.

⁃ The campsite in Idyllwild is awesome. 3$ PCT rate and 1$ showers, private bathrooms and showers (not just stalls, luxury, I know). Mount Laguna Campground has a 3$ PCT rate as well.

⁃ The PCT community is not as perfect as people have made it out to be. There are plenty of assholes out there unfortunately, so don’t get too attached to your romanticized idea of the trail and trail families. If you find yourself in a bad bubble of people hike ahead or take a shorter day according to your relative paces. However, that doesn’t mean that there aren’t tons of wonderful people out there or that you will have a bad experience!

⁃ Take more short days/long breaks on-trail rather than spending extra time in towns. Trust me, it will be more memorable, luxurious, and enjoyable.

⁃ One of the reasons for the previous point is this: Zero days do not equal rest. You will still have to walk several miles in town doing chores and getting to restaurants and mentally it can be pretty exhausting.

⁃ Unless you have specific plans to stay in Big Bear City, send any mail to the Big Bear Lake post office. It’s right by the Big Bear Hostel and the center of town (Big Bear Lake is the bigger of the two). You don’t want to get stuck having to find a hitch to get your packages.

⁃ If you’re planning to stay at the Big Bear Hostel (or really any lodging in town) and are going to get there later in the day, call ahead and reserve a bed/room. The Big Bear Hostel fills up quickly during Nobo season.

⁃ A lot of hotels hike up their rates on the weekends. If you have a weekend start date you might find yourself hitting a lot of the towns on weekends, depending on your pace.

⁃ A lot of the post offices along the trail are not only closed on Sundays, but I was surprised that many of them are only open for pick-up or for only an hour or so on Saturdays. Make sure to check post office hours ahead of time as you’re going into a town!

⁃ Don’t worry about getting a trail name! It will come. Additionally, if you get offered a trail name that you don’t like, you don’t have to take it. I turned down almost a dozen before I got one that felt right.

⁃ People will be freaking out about a 40 mile dry stretch after Tehachapi. There’s actually a spring, but because many people rely on Guthooks to calculate the next source, and the spring is a mile or two off trail down a dirt road, it doesn’t show up in the app’s water source list (but it’s still on the app’s digital map). It’s on the water report and it’s a beautiful faucet.

⁃ Don’t start with too much food! This was something that a huge amount of people did starting from the border. The first major resupply for most people is Warner Springs at mile 109, where they will send a box. However, you probably won’t be super hungry (some people will though), and there are 3 places to do a smaller resupply, so you don’t need to worry about running out of food: the deli at Lake Morena at mile 20 (small store with well-stocked snacks and a cafe), the general store in Mt. Laguna at mile 40 which also sells backpacking food and meals, and several small stores in Julian at mile 77.

⁃ If you are on the lookout for Thai food on the trail, there are two restaurants that I know of in the first 700 miles. The one in Big Bear Lake was pretty disappointing in quality per my personal experience and the consensus of other hikers, but the one in Tehachapi (called Thai-hechapi, bonus points for the pun, amirite?) is really, really good.

⁃ Food is expensive. Why.

⁃ Just because you are hungry does not mean that bad food does not still taste bad.

⁃ Don’t burn your polenta.

⁃ Idahoan instant potatoes are infinitely better than Betty Crocker ones.

– People will tell you that rattlesnakes will always rattle and tell you where they are before you get close to them. Lies. Most of the rattlesnakes I saw didn’t rattle, and I almost stepped on many of them because they wear camouflage and so are invisible. Rattlesnakes are lazy and taking naps, and warning you is not their job and they are being paid minimum wage, you entitled hiker…

⁃ It can be easy to get touch-starved when you’re hiking, especially when you’re solo. I could count and remember every hug that I got on-trail. Hug your fellow hikers, hug trail angels! Hug dogs (with permission)! Trail angels, hug hikers! They feel really good. Human contact is a psychological need.

⁃ LNT, LNT, LNT!! Read up, especially if you are new to backpacking or come from a country or culture that doesn’t evoke LNT in the outdoors in the same holy, reverent way as we in the United States. Carry out thy toilet paper! Don’t ever use soap in the backcountry! Don’t wash dishes/clothes in or otherwise contaminate water sources!

⁃ If you have female anatomy down there, experiment with peeing standing up to help save your knees! Pee rags are awesome, don’t be afraid to try them.

⁃ The Mountain Hardware in Wrightwood sells Tyvek and gives out PCT pins to hikers. There is also a cafe there that I heard gives out PCT patches?

⁃ If your footwear is not working for you, maybe causing blisters or unreasonable achy feet, DO NOT BE HESITANT TO SWITCH THEM OUT. Even if your shoes are new and expensive. There are always shoes in hiker boxes and you might find a pair there. Altra Lone Peaks are popular for a reason and worth a shot- if the zero-drop isn’t your thing, you can get inserts.

⁃ The shuttle between Agua Dulce’s grocery store and Hiker Heaven runs on the hour. The grocery store there is extremely marked-up price-wise; consider resupplying 10 miles earlier in Acton, or Hiker Heaven runs shuttles to REI for 20$/person and there is a good grocery store right next to it. It’s probably worth it to send a resupply box there.

⁃ Day hikers can be pretty weird, opinionated and patronizing sometimes. Most of them are awesome though and they smell like laundry detergent??

⁃ If your are grumpy, feeling tired, slow, or generally bonking out, stop and eat something. Even if there are flies or mosquitos and you don’t want to stop. You will feel better.

⁃ Enjoy yourself. If you are reading this before starting your hike, and you are feeling anxious and stressed, it going to be okay. It is not going to be as hard in the ways you think it will be, but harder in other ways. The human mind is pretty good at forgetting physical pain. You will get into the swing of things pretty quickly, and you will be surrounded by plenty of other hikers who are all learning and experiencing this new thing with you. You are all just endogenous morphine addicts walking north together. Try to experience every day as much as you can, because you never know when your hike will end. Getting to Canada depends as much on luck as physical, financial, and mental struggles. You may break your foot tomorrow, or your ankle. It happens. Be as positive and kind a person to other hikers as you can be.

⁃ And remember: never set up camp on a red ant nest. You will have to pick them off of your groundsheet. No excuse.

PCT class of 2018, I hope to see you out there. :)

-Love, Picnic

Day 49- Ridgecrest to Reno  

The next morning after breakfast I say goodbye to Twinkle, throat quivering and tight, as she gets in the car with a bunch of other hikers to be shuttled to Walker Pass. My mom and I leave soon after with a hiker named Ida, a Swede who lives in Australia, in tow. We’re going to Kennedy Meadows to pick up my packages and then north along 395 to Reno and home, dropping Ida off in Mammoth.

We find our way out of sprawling Ridgecrest and onto the sun-bleached highway that will take us to 395. Right after the turn-off heading up into the mountains to Walker Pass, we see a hiker hitching and slow down to pick him up. As we pass and pull off into the shoulder, I recognize his black-bearded, dirty face. It’s Tomas! He’s been sitting on the side of the road in the heat for a while now with his thumb out, and he’s disheveled, dirty and smelly as he slides into the back seat. We talk and drive. Eventually we turn off onto the small mountain road that goes up to Kennedy Meadows. Our Prius’s engines grumble us upwards, the winding road cut into the side of a steep desert mountainside, the slope falling off so sharply that I can’t see what’s below. After a half hour or so, the landscape changes into dry pine and eventually greener meadows as we near KM. We pull into the general store parking lot. Hikers choke the porch and patio, and bumble past the car while walking to and from their tents.

We walk into the busy store and put our names on a list to get our packages. Tomas is picking up a new pair of boots he sent here, while Ida has already been at Kennedy Meadows. The counter is worn and covered in taped-on notices, and the walls are lined with shelves of trail bars and powdered drink mixes. I squeeze past hikers and say hello to Farkle, who is sitting on a bench out front and who I haven’t seen since day 3 or 4 in Mount Laguna. My mom insisted I sit down while she gets my packages, and I find Hitch and Woodstock on the patio and sit with them and tell them about my foot. The snow/mountaineering class they were both going to take and that Hitch skipped a section to get to in time was cancelled after the teacher, Ned Tibbets, was heli-vacced out of the mountains on a scouting trip when his back went out. He sent out a message to everyone taking it that he would consider their course fees a donation to his business, and is being difficult with Hitch about refunds.

Every now and then the entire patio erupts into clapping as hikers walk up the road, having finished the desert. I feel sad that I can’t be a part of this, but at the same time oddly detached about it. The only other hikers I know here are Whizkid and Baby Jesus. When my mom comes to tell me the packages with my ice axe, bear can and resupply are in the car, I introduce her to Hitch, Woodstock and Whiz and then I say goodbye and shuffle after her to the car. I don’t feel any desire to stay here.

Then it’s a long, windy drive back down the road to 395, except this time braking instead of meat-grinding with our hybrid engine (I might be affectionately exaggerating). We drop off Tomas and briefly pick up two skinny hiker dudes in Lone Pine, hitching back up to the Onion Valley trailhead. They aren’t carrying maps, and there’s a vague tension in the car, between the hikers who are going through the Sierra in the snow and display a pointed and seemingly criticizing nonchalance about the achievability of what they are about to do, and the rest of us: a mother, a hiker skipping the Sierra, an injured hiker. We drop them off and continue our long drive north.

It’s a familiar and nostalgic drive, the Sierra rising up to our left, vast stretches of brown desert mountains in the foreground. We drop Ida off at a campground in Mammoth as the sky is getting gray, the sun low and the air coming biting and cold through our car windows. We pass through Lee Vining with the dying sunset giving off just enough light to see across Mono Lake, through the neon main street of Bridgeport in darkness. Topaz Lake is only the far-away light of one or two houses on the far shore, and the single casino that hugs the curve of the road. Gardnerville and Minden. Then Carson City, where 395 is briefly un-joined. We find our way back to 395 through streets with stop-lights and bright signs, the change in pace jolting me from my tired, zombie-like state.

The 30-minute drive between Carson City and home (!) goes by quickly in the dark, passing through Washoe Valley. Suddenly, inexplicably, we’re surrounded by the lights of Reno, the pale, spider-webbed concrete of the highway tread feeling unreal and exposed. Everything about being in big towns feels awful and wrong now, wasteful and dis-ordered and confusing. It feels strange to have this feeling towards my own city.

We pull off the highway and sit at the red light. The roads are quiet and empty this late at night, and I guess I’m glad I’m not coming back in the day time. Right onto McCarran, left at Pyramid, the lit-up roundness of our library, then left onto into our neighborhood. We pull up into our driveway and into our garage. Our dogs are barking at the door for us. The car headlights flood the garage. I pull myself up and out of the car, wincing at the swollenness of my foot. My mom opens up the door and our dogs run to meet me, although honestly they’re just as excited to see her. Wren is so furry and bigger than the last time I saw her, although she’s still a puppy. I’m not sure she recognizes me – she’s confused but Zephyr is excited to see me so I must be someone she knows.

I limp through the dark house in a daze and say hello to my dad and brothers, who were woken up by the barking dogs. I go into my room and pull on an over-sized t-shirt for sleeping. I have a dresser again now. I get into bed. Should this feel more momentous or different? I fall asleep.

Day 48- 2 miles from mile 624 to Dove Spring Canyon Road at mile 621.9 and down to Ridgecrest.  

I’m exhausted, fighting to stay asleep. There’s a sinking, uneasy feeling in my gut. I’m going to have to figure out how to get off-trail today, and I want to feign sleep as long as I can, like a little kid who is pretending to be asleep in the hope that they don’t have to go to school. Above me I can hear a steady stream of trekking poles, probably all of the hikers who camped at the springs and at the picnic table back at the road. The sun is bright and it’s already warm. Curiosity to see the faces walking past above me, to see if any of them are my friends (will I ever see any of them again?) and the burgeoning undeniability of my wakefullness make me poke my head out of my sleeping bag hood and twist around to look at the trail. Three or so hikers are walking across the slope above me.

I recognize Twinkle Toes and shout out. “Twinkle!”

She stops and turns. “Picnic!”

“I think I have a broken foot!”

“What?!”

“Yah! I know!” I shout, glumly.

“I’m coming down!”

She turns around and picks her way down the slope to me. I unzip my sleeping bag and sit up. Everything is much different in the daytime. Everything is sandy and brown and bright instead of windswept and black. The strip of paler dirt that I camped on last night is a faint use-trail that hikers have formed, leading down to an abandoned, rusted-out bus. I’m too distracted to be curious about how it got up here, on the side of a ridge in the middle of no-where. I’m much calmer, all of my emotions waning and emptied, drained. Twinkle reaches me and asks me what happened, and I explain my situation, and my plan to go back to the picnic table two miles back and find a way to get to civilization.

“I’m coming with you,” she says.

I don’t even argue, and start packing up all of my things. Twinkle makes me eat something for breakfast so I nibble some peanut butter bars, which clump in my mouth like dry sand as I chew them. I sit on my empty tyvek and put my shoes on. My foot is swollen and my toe socks stretch tight against my toes. My brain isn’t working. As I pack up I ask Twinkle about where she camped last night and where she’s been the last couple of days; she’s only been a mile or two behind me. Then we start walking, Twinkle behind me.

I walk with my foot splayed out, to keep pressure off. Someone’s replaced my foot with a swollen log. I focus on my walking, so we don’t talk much. Two miles. The trail is sandy and with each step churns under my feet. And there are so many hikers! Every minute or so a group rounds a bend, and passes us. I feel like I have to explain myself, why I’m walking south when I should be walking north, my obvious injury. I don’t know any of them. It’s like a walk of shame, except I don’t feel ashamed, but only mildly embarrassed. Still, I feel like I owe them an explanation. They’ll all gather together at the next water source, and not unkindly ask eachother if they saw the limping southbounder, and why was she limping and why was she walking south? So as they pass I offer the explanation that my foot is broken and that I’m getting off-trail, and have a nice hike.

The trail is washed out in places, and I have to cross small, sandy ditches to get across. The PCT crosses a saddle to the other side of the hill, and now the views all stretch off to my left instead of my right, a maze of washes and long-armed ridges washed out, hazy in the harsh morning light.

And then we’re there. Twinkle and I set our packs on the benches of the empty picnic table, and I take out my phone and text my mom. She answers immediately and says she’s going to drive down to get me, that she’ll leave Reno in an hour or two. I ask if she’s bringing our dogs, I want to hug my dogs, but she’s not. Meanwhile, Twinkle has found a list of trail angels in the area online. There’s a map of the area posted nearby, and we debate which of them would be closest, and who we should call. Twinkle says she isn’t enjoying this section, it’s too hot, and she would be happy to skip it, so she’s coming with me. “Are you sure,” I say, and she is.

We decide to call a trail angel based in Ridgecrest, Erica. Twinkle calls, explains the situation and our location. I fidget beside her. Twinkle gets off the phone, thanking Erica profusely.

“What’d she say?” I ask.

She was taking the day off of work today, so she can drive up in her jeep and get us! We send her our GPS coordinates and settle down to wait. I text my mom the new info and Twinkle and I play Ani DiFranco out loud on our phones – she has some of her older music, and I have some of her new. I lay out my food and eat some of it. Other hikers start showing up and we tell them about the cell service here and I offer them my water. The wind is blowing our belongings away, which I weigh down the best I can. After a while Erica calls us to tell us the road was blocked by a gate a few miles down and they’re finding another route around. Twinkle and I feel bad – I can walk down, I say – but she’s coming. We wait some more. I scan the faces of all of the hikers passing through, either heading down to the spring our sitting down with us, but I don’t know any of them.

Then I catch the small figure and distinctive ice axe of Greg coming up, the hiker who I tried to name Hedwig back at Robin Bird Spring. I say hi, ask him if he’s keeping the name. He is!! I’ve finally given a trail name! Just in time, too. I high five Twinkle.

I’m sitting and listening to the other hikers talking, and although right now I don’t feel sad, I think I refuse to think about what is happening, I already feel like an outsider. The title that was magically bestowed upon me the moment I stepped out from the southern terminus is gone. I am not longer trying to walk north. I am not a thruhiker anymore. And then just like that, on this ridge top that feels remote and entirely separate from civilization and real, normal life, there is a shiny white jeep rumbling up the ATV road.

A short Hispanic woman hops out of the driver’s side, and a tall, cheery young man who speaks with a European (? I am bad at accents) accent of some kind steps out from shotgun. Twinkle stands up to greet them. Erica asks who has the broken foot and I wave and say hi as I work to pack my things away for the last time. Twinkle and the young man, who I learn is named Kitchen Sink, put my pack in the back of the car and I slide into the backseat. I try to sit as straight and still as I can so I don’t get more of my dust on the seat. Twinkle hops in next to me, and as Erika turns the car around we thank her and apologize about the trouble it took to get us. The drive back to paved roads is longer than I thought, and steeper- a huge maze of double-wide, deeply rutted ATV roads. Sometimes they are so steep or slanted that it feels like the car is going to tip over, and I clutch the seat. My mom could never have gotten up these roads in our car, and would never have found her way up without GPS tracks. I am deeply grateful, overwhelmed, that Erika is here, and I don’t think that anyone else would have been able to come up these roads and get us. She’s a confident driver and barely blinks at the road conditions, the road dropping off steeply at times down the sides of hills. Kitchen Sink, who apparently met Erika last year on his PCT hike when she hosted him and is dropping by to visit on his road trip, keeps up a conversation with Erika through most of the drive. I sit there in a shy, quiet daze and occasionally interject a sentence or two into the conversation.

Finally we reach the highway, a lonely two-lane road with dry, sun-paled asphalt. Erika turns off of the dirt road and we speed along through an empty, bright valley. Soon enough we’re approaching Ridgecrest, a sparse, scattered, porous town built next to and serving a military base. The town is splintered, different loci separated by large empty spaces in the middle of an enormous desert valley. We enter a neighborhood and pull into Erika’s house, park under the metal car port.

Erika sets Twinkle and I up in a guest bedroom. I am granted first shower. I take off my shoes, my foot swollen and useless, and hobble over to the bathroom with my weight on my heel. I scrub my PCT dust off as best I can, and then go and sit in my clean clothes in our room and in the living room. I wander around, restless. I feel guilty, like an intruder, like I want to be helpful and do something or have a conversation or anything, to prove that I’m not fundamentally injured. This is not a part of me.

I am introduced to Erica’s partner, and Erica’s goats, hens, dogs and turkeys in the backyard. The goats want to chew on my clothing, and there is a little chihuahua that wants to be held, and several pony-sized dogs in a fenced-off area. My mom calls or texts me every now and then to let me know where she is. Another big group of hikers is brought in, who were picked up at Walker Pass.

Then my mom calls to let me know she’s in Ridgecrest, and that she’ll be here in a few minutes. I limp outside to stand in the driveway under the carport. My mom sees me waiting and jokingly drives by the house, and then she parks and is out and we hug – it feels really, really good to see her. I bring her in and introduce her to Erica.

It’s decided my mom will share a bed with me and stay the night here. Dinner is made, and honestly I don’t remember much of the rest of the night. I’m quiet and numb and exhausted, trying to process everything. Everyone goes to bed, hikers in both guest bedrooms and sleeping on the couches and rugs in the living rooms. I stay up a little bit longer to write up a journal entry for yesterday, before it leaves my mind. The details, still fresh in my mind, are important. Just yesterday I was on the PCT, sitting cross-legged in the middle of a dirt clearing while contemplating my injury and the willpower of standing up, my shadow stretching in front of me. I was asking Peach if I could join her getting a ride from Walker Pass, and talking to her about gratitude that the trail exists and for the people that hike it. I was drinking sun-broiled water and washing sweat out of my eyes. I was talking to Joshua Trees. I was fleeing in grief in the middle of the night by the light of my headlamp, and now I’m lying down in a soft bed with one of my dearest humans sleeping next to me. I don’t know what’s going to happen next, when I will be getting back with on-trail, but for now I am clouded and ready to sleep.

Day 47- 18.8 miles from Landers Meadow Camp at mile 608.9 to slope near abandoned bus at mile 623 ish.

Chef, Jukebox and Milo were  not joking when they said they were waking up at 3. I’m half-awake, listening to them eat breakfast and pack up. The moon shines into my face. I really want to be asleep right now; eventually they leave and I get a couple more hours of sleep, waking up and falling asleep again several times until the sun is above the horizon. I look around; Outlaw is up, and is so expert at the lazy game that he packs away his sleeping bag without taking everything out, folds up his sleeping pad, filters some water from the spring, and is set to go. I don’t even think he set up his groundsheet under his sleeping pad last night. I can only aspire to such laziness.
I take my time in camp, trying to postpone standing up and having to feel my foot being sad. I go to filter some water at the spring with Peach and Tomäs, limping and hobbling barefoot across the ground. I clean my socks out in the outflow from the trough, rubbing them together under the water until they no longer bleed brown.

I hobble back, eat some food, dawdle some more. It’s 7 when I put my shoes on and walk back up the road to the trail. That’s horribly late. I limp along the trail for two miles, then stop to eat some licorice and a breakfast bar. I rummage through my pack and pull out my baggie of pills; I take out two Ibuprofen and swallow them with some water. Although I can walk on my foot, it hurts and jolts and it’s not very fun. It’s all I can think about. What happened to my foot? Could I have fractured it that night with the ants, and just assumed that the pain was an ant bite? Can I make it to Kennedy Meadows? I probably shouldn’t try. Peach is getting a ride from Walker Pass to Lone Pine from someone, and maybe I can go with her? Will I be able to get back on trail, or will my foot be injured enough that I won’t be able to walk any more? A lump forms in my throat.

I hear trekking poles clicking, and see Peach coming down the trail. “Hey, Peach,” I say.
I explain my situation, and she says of course, since Tomäs is hiking on. Someone from a trail angel Facebook page is driving her, and meeting her at the campground entrance at 9 am on Saturday. I talk with her for a while, and when she and Tomas leave I get on my feet and walk after them. Of course, with the Ibuprofen, my foot feels almost normal. I can suddenly see myself hiking to Kennedy Meadows, even though I know it’s just the painkillers talking. My foot is still screwed up. I cry as I walk, tears big and wet on my cheeks. I’m getting off the PCT. The idea of it is so awful to me that I convince myself that I can still walk to Kennedy Meadows if I take Ibuprofen.

I walk a couple more miles through a broad desert wasteland punctuated by rising hills and far-off mountains, to where the trail crosses a dirt road. There’s a water cache, and I join Peach and Tomas under a tangle of Joshua Trees across the road. My water is warm like tea in my water bottles, and so is the water from the cache when I go grab another liter.
I sit with them, talking and almost falling asleep. I tell Peach that my foot feels fine now, so I might be able to make it to Kennedy Meadows, but that I’m not sure and will have to see how my foot feels. Peach says goodbye to Tomäs, as they’re going to have to split up soon, with Peach leaving at Walker Pass for a few days to do some work for her business, and Tomäs heading to Kennedy Meadows to try and do the Sierra. They met a couple of days into the hike and have been hiking together since.
As I hike behind Peach, talking about Wild and the trail and our decisions to flip around the Sierra, I can feel the Ibuprofen wearing off. My foot feels tender in my shoe, sore like after a long hiking day on rocky trail, but not jolting yet. I start to favor it again.

I get ahead when Peach takes a break, sweating so much in the sun that sweat gets into my eyes and burns. I pour some of my tea-water in my eyes to flush it out, and stand there, waiting for my eyes to be okay enough to see with. I walk through stands of Joshua Trees, all bent over each other in a mass game of Twister. Or maybe it’s a yoga convention. I can’t tell. They peer at me friendlily, with their curious faces and their limbs bent in cheery hellos.

I sit under a patch of them and drink some water, waiting for Peach to catch up. The water source is coming up, and it’s a weird route down to it, through a steep gully to the valley floor. We reach the junction together, and after consulting all of our sources, head down the dry, sandy stream bed. There are supposed to be some rock scrambles “that might make some hikers uncomfortable,” and we pass a few rocks that we have to step down from. “That was super easy,” we laugh, shaking our heads at the Water Report.

After a few minutes, we round a bend and the gully drops away. My heart sinks a bit. There are 2 spots that I can see where we’ll have to boulder down or around some rock faces to move forward. The first one is not that bad, about as tall as I am; Peach finds a trail around, but I just sit down and try to scoot down the granite, using the boulders on the sides for handholds. My foot does not have the strength or ease of motion to try it on my feet. The granite is smooth from water running down the gully, though, and I start sliding down. I manage to hold myself up, but eventually have to just let myself go and slide down into my feet.

The second one is even worse. It looks like there might be a trail around, but Peach is worried this is the wrong gully, and I’m afraid I can’t get down easily with my backpack and bum foot, or if we do, there might be another drop-off that’s worse.

So, we turn around and take the trail up and around the first drop-off, and trudge back up in the heat and the deep, loose sand. There’s a road that’s 2 miles further along the trail and 2 miles down that will also take us to the spring.
My foot is sad after the strain of our little adventure, so I fall behind. We can see the gully and the spring and eventually the road from our vantage point up on the hill; it looks so far away, sweating and foot-sore in the heat. I drink some more of my hot water. Even hot it tastes good at this point.

Where the trail crosses the road that will take us down to the spring, there is a concrete picnic table, a big map of all of the ATV trails in the area, and cell service that will probably be the last until the wifi at Kennedy Meadows, according to our trail beta. I sit on the bench next to Peach under the shade from her umbrella and text my mom to tell her I’m getting off trail at Walker Pass and will be in Lone Pine. She says she’ll drive down from Reno to pick me up, and also we can drive down to Kennedy Meadows to pick my packages up with all of my snow gear.

I’m so happy that I get to see her soon, and I sit and talk to her for a while after Peach leaves. Then I say goodbye and tell her I’ll be at the service again tomorrow morning, and head down the road. I don’t even try to not limp, crying about having to get off the PCT. I hope my foot is okay and I’ll be able to hike some more of the trail this summer; at the very least, I can use the money I have saved up to travel.
I see the old willows crowded around the spring, bushy and green among the Joshua trees. There’s a magical spigot here, flowing from the spring somewhere behind a barbed-wire fence. I set up my cowboy camp on a patch of hard sand behind a bush, and filter a ton of water. I drink some Emergen-C for electrolytes, and carry my food bag down to the ATV road to sit in the shade with Peach, Finger Guns and Katherine. I spill out all of my food. I eat a bagel with the last of my cream cheese, which is incredibly still fine after a couple of days in the heat. I eat a tuna wrap with my last sad tortilla, red pepper flakes, and lots of mayonnaise. Then I eat a package of pop tarts, which I decided to try out in Tehachapi, and top it off with a Mexican hard candy my mom sent me, watermelon with chili powder inside. I give one to Peach, too. I make a pile of some of my extra food for her to give to Tomäs tomorrow, since he doesn’t have enough to get to Kennedy Meadows. Peach is allergic to gluten, so we talk about hiking the trail gluten-free, what with my long-deceased diet, which we agree is easily possible with supplemental food boxes of dinners and stuff. I think I adore Peach.

Then I head back up to my campsite, limping still. The moon has risen above the hills behind the road, and the sun is setting across from it. Clouds shift in bands across the sunset, and I stand on my Tyvek sheet and watch. This could be one of the last sunsets on the PCT I’ll have, at least as a thru-hiker, at least this year. I want to cry. Mourning doves wing across the air, their wings whistling and chirping as they fly. Their calls ring out across the silent desert. Quails send out cautious messages: Chicago! Chicago! There are so many birds here.

“Was that a bird that just made that cute sound?” Peach asks as the birds chirrup and talk around us.

“Yes, unless it was Big Sky,” I say, and she laughs.

I crawl into my sleeping bag and pull up the zipper. I suddenly realize how much I love getting into my sleeping bag each night, putting my feet in, pulling the hood behind me, tugging it towards my shoulder so I can finish zipping it. I’m going to miss it, and I’m filled with gratitude that this is my life, that I’m able to walk all day and then zip myself into my sleeping bag every night, this is a privilege-

The moon has a halo of light around it as it shines through the thin layer of cloud stretching across the sky, blue and endless and opal as I stare up into it.

Then, I start crying. I try to muffle them so that I don’t bother Peach or Big Sky, camped up the slope by the spigot. Tears swell down my face, and I can’t sleep, mind racing, thinking about getting off trail. I feel panicky and hot and restless thinking about it. I’m sweating in my sleeping bag, and it’s already 10:30. It’s just not fair.

I realize I’m probably not going to sleep, so I dig into my gray catch-all bag and take two Ibuprofen and start to pack up my things. I feel calmer now that I have a purpose. I write a message for Peach when I go to fill up on water and leave it under her trekking poles, telling her that I’m night-hiking and that I’ll see her at Walker Pass. Finally I roll up my backpack, attach my sleeping pad on top, and fold up my Tyvek. It crinkles softly against my chest; I tuck my chin against it to start the first fold, pulling my hands forward with the edges, then stuff it into my outside mesh pocket next to my sandals.

I look around, at Peach’s and Big Sky’s tents, at the moon glowing with a halo under a layer of clouds. The wind rattles the bushes, humid and cool. I shiver a bit, switch my headlamp onto the white light, and head off. My foot splays uncomfortably to the side as I walk down the hard-packed dirt to the road bed.

And then I walk, at first quietly and determinedly, then furiously, angrily, my grief washing over me in waves. My feet churn over the soft road, my right foot clumsy and painful when I let it push down too hard on the little mountains and valleys of sand. My feet throw up a thousand little notes of dust that swirl in the light of my headlamp and obscure my vision in between the blur of tears. Every couple of hundred feet, everything hits me and I stop to cry, my face scrunched up and hot, my chest tight. I howl and wail and whimper at the dark desert, at the lonely pale road, the wind, the stars. The thought of having to leave the PCT, the mountains, the people, is unbearable. This is what I’ve always wanted, what I worked so hard to get a chance to do, and now it’s just gone; I won’t even get to finish the last 80 or so miles of desert, I won’t get to walk up the road at Kennedy Meadows to the porch with all of my friends and have them cheer as I walk up, because I’ve done it, I’ve almost hiked 700 miles to the end of the desert. I’m so close.

I’m mostly too angry and sad to be afraid of the dark around me. The Joshua Trees are in bloom, their crowns clustered with seed pods like alien eyes, threatening in the dark. Sometimes, though, in spite of my grief, I feel small again, and stop, heart racing, looking at the desert around me. “Let a mountain lion come and swallow me whole,” I then think angrily, “I don’t care.”

I finally reach the picnic table, the wind rising into a swift howl that pushes against my pack and makes the bushes sway underneath it. There are tents clustered around it, so I lower my light and sit and text my mom what I’m doing, and that if I don’t have service before then I’ll be in Lone Pine with Peach on Saturday.

Then I walk. The wind runs across the landscape like a comb, brushing against my cheeks and leaving the skin in my cheeks cool. I walk as fast as I can, not caring if I hurt my foot, it can rot for all I care. I cry, walking in the dark. Pale flowers catch my headlamp, the dark silhouettes of Joshua Trees bending in yoga poses across the dark vista. My stomach feels empty but I don’t want to eat, I just want to walk and be miserable. I feel slightly feverish. My mouth is dry. Tingles brush up and down the skin on my leg from my foot.

I think about all of the people who’ve decided they want to quit, because it’s too miserable, too hard, not for them. It leaves a hollow feeling in my gut. I’m angry at them, for being able to choose to leave, even though I’m not really angry at them, but I just I want to be here, following this trail through the night, forever. I don’t ever want to leave. I love you, I love you, I cry. No, no, no. My face wet, I face the stars and howl, bending my knees and cupping them with my hands.
I finally stop to drink something and pee, where a bush shelters the trail from the wind, its branches trembling. Slowly my tears dry up, nothing left to give, and I’m empty, walking along the trail, listless, the wind chilling me slowly and bringing me to my senses. I can feel my foot now, throbbing. I can’t walk with it straight now, but completely splayed to the side to keep the pressure away from the ball of my foot. It really hurts and starts to feel really weird and swollen into the roof of my shoe. I think I can feel things shift around inside there somewhere if I lean into it. I sit down as the trail starts climbing up, and drop my pack on the trail beside me.

I sit staring into the dark, sobering up to reality. I have to decide what to do. Walking the 28 miles to Walker Pass seems hellish now. I could make it, but it would be a slow and painful and long walk. And stupid. And my foot could get much worse and I’d have to resort to using my Spot to alert Search and Rescue. Or, I could walk back to the picnic table with the service, by the ATV road; I could somehow find someone to drive up and get me, or walk down to the highway that I can see it connect to on my map, Highway 15, which would be less than half of the length to Walker Pass.

But, right now, I’m cold and tired and can’t walk much, and maybe my foot will magically be different in the morning. I stand up, letting my good foot catch my weight and my bad foot stabilize. I grab my pack shoulder strap and swing it around onto my back. I adjust my shirt over to center it, and buckle my dusty hip belt over my stomach. When I grab my trekking poles, I notice a scorpion sitting half out of its hole right by where I sat. I poke it with my trekking pole and it disappears. Hi, friend.

I look around me, switching my headlamp to a beam that searches the landscape for anywhere flat and away from the wind. There’s a ridgeline back down the trail to the left, but there’s also a use-trail going to the right that looks like it might be flat enough to sleep on, a strip of pale white in the gray landscape. I hobble down and set up my camp as quickly as I can on the narrow strip of flat ground, using water bottles to hold my groundsheet in place. I’m so exhausted, from crying and thinking about my foot. It’s 1 in the morning of the next day. I pull all of my sleeping clothes on, pull my hat over my face, scrunch up my sleeping bag, and fall asleep.

Day 46- 19.8 miles from campsite under windmills at mile 589.1 to Landers Meadow Camp at mile 608.9 

The sun is above the horizon when I wake up. The cheatgrass below me last night was like a mattress cradling my body, the moon a searchlight. The windmills rumble like a train. I hear the gate ahead screeching on rusty hinges as someone passes through.

I pack all of my stuff up without even standing. Ah, cowboy camping! I love thee. I stand up; my foot still hurts when I start walking, but it’s not as bad. I really hope it’ll be fine if I rest it for a week in Reno. I continue mulling over the skip-and-flip in my head as I walk, trying to be nice to my foot and not have it hit the trail too hard as I step. If I’m nice to it, it will be nice to me.

I have service and text my mom my plan; I’m going to come home for a week after reaching Lone Pine, then head north from Sierra City. I’ll reach Canada (hopefully) then come home and hike south from Sierra City, ending on Whitney. I know there will still be lots of snow and there will be less people so I might be alone, but it will be much more manageable as far snow and stream crossings than down south. At least, that is what I hope.

I passed an older woman before the gate, and when I’m sitting down talking to my mom, she comes up. “Hey, you didn’t lose a jacket, did you?” I ask.

“Yes, a black Patagonia one. Did you see it?” she says. She has an eastern European accent and looks like she’s in her 70s, with a small purple ULA pack.

“Yah,” I say, and pull it from the back of my pack to hand it to her.

She tells me she lives on the East Coast and is hiking from Tehachapi to Kennedy Meadows, or beyond. She tells me to call her Oma (meaning grandma). She tries to give the jacket back to me, saying she only brought it for the plane ride and it was expensive to ship back, but I refuse. “I already have a jacket,” I say, and anyway it’s way too small for me. She asks me if I know anyone who wants it but I shake my head. It’s beautiful here, with a long, drawn-out view of the mountains, creamy desert terrain sloping down, slowly transitioning to pine forest and meadow. I say goodbye to Oma and head off.

After about 8 miles I stop and take a lunch break to rest my foot. I make a salmon wrap with mayo and tartar sauce and cream cheese and cheetos. I hold it together with my hands as I eat it, falling apart and dripping with juices. I’m sitting on a pine log in the middle of a shady dry meadow. It’s become Sierra-like, with granite boulders for sitting on, delicious pine groves, and sloping fens. I pick the salmon pieces that fell from my wrap out of the pine needles.

A hiker named Squarepants catches up to me as I’m heading out, and we hike the next 5 miles to the spring together, talking about school and other things. He asks me about homeschooling, and whether I liked it; as usual, I answer and then ask the same about public school. I figure if I have to constantly put up with answering all of the questions about homeschooling, I get to ask a few questions back.

We reach Robin Bird Spring, and join Five, Jukebox, Milo and Chef as they siesta. Outlaw comes, and a guy named Greg who just started. I’ve yet to give a trail name and have someone take it, so I jump on my opportunity; “I’m going to throw a trail name your way,” I say. He looks a lot like the antagonist from the movie Split who has Dissociative Identity Disorder, played by James MacAvoy. I explain the plot and character, probably poorly, and say his trail name should be Hedwig, after the antagonist’s child personality. Greg thinks that you have to take any name that is given to you, but we assure him that he gets to decide whether to keep any of them; anyway, I hope he takes it. Hedwig is a cool name.

I sit and don’t actually do much for a couple of hours, then filter some water and cook ramen for dinner. Then I put my shoes on, heave my pack on, and wince as my foot jolts with pain until I walk a few steps back up the trail. Then it feels okay.

The sun is low and casts the shadows of pine trees across the trail. I read the description for the water source I’m camping at, and apparently there’s car camping and porta-potties. “Are there picnic tables at Lander Camp?!?” I write in the trail register half a mile before.

There are not, but Chef tries to console me by pointing out the water tank and the outhouses, which she explains are apparently almost overflowing but still useable. I am not convinced that this makes up for the lack of picnic tables, and sit down in the dirt and eat bagels with my normal cream cheese and grape jam and trail mix on top for dinner. The air is cool, and the dirt warm and soft. Chef has leftover cookie crumble she made at Robin Bird Spring, which she shares with us. It’s delicious. Outlaw sits and makes cold apple and cinnamon instant oatmeal, which is hilarious as Chef is eating fresh hummus and bagels like a queen. She pours some of her dessert crumble into his pot, which he accepts like a poor person receiving alms, outstretching his pot for donations. We tease him for not having a stove, and call his oatmeal “depression oatmeal,” Chef and I cracking up together in the gloomy, empty campsite ringed by pines.

I manage to stand up, and crawl into my sleeping bag. Outlaw goes to cowboy under the pines. Chef, Jukebox and Milo warn us and say they’re getting up at 3 am tomorrow, which I think they’re joking about. The moon rises up between two pines. I want to do another longer day tomorrow so I can see my family soon, but I also want to enjoy the last stretch before Kennedy Meadows, before I flip up and am no longer in a bubble of hikers. Before I’ll probably be hiking alone.

Day 45- 19.7 miles from campsite at mile 569.4 to campsite under windmills at mile 589.1  

The wind is loud all night and buffets against my sleeping bag, entering through the scrunched-up hood and filling the entire bag with air like a parachute. I have to pee, but I can’t get up because then everything I own will blow away into the dark. I just endure the night, finally drifting off into a full sleep sometime before the sun rises.

Twinkle is already packing up as I open my eyes and pull myself out of my sleeping bag. As I’m stuffing my sleeping bag into my backpack, the extra empty water bottles I picked up in Tehachapi go flying off. I can’t move otherwise my groundsheet will probably fly away, too, but Twinkle runs after them and brings them back to me.

I stuff my things haphazardly into my bag, stopping to eat some breakfast, oreos and a fruit roll up, some of the causes of my health-nut anxiety while resupplying the other day. This resupply has gotten progressively less healthy. My backpack rolls up and the bulge on top is much higher than the top of the frame with all of the food. My sleeping pad perches, lop-sided, on top.

I head off after Twinkle. I’m fighting the wind; even as I’m going straight along the trail, I have to walk diagonally. Several times I’m forced off the trail by an unexpected gust. It rams into me like an ocean wave, and I inch my way up the hill. What is much more concerning is the state of my right foot; I have to walk with it sticking to the side until I warm it up, one of the metatarsals painful and tight. It stops bothering me as much once I’ve been walking for a while, and then I can walk with it straight again. It could be a stress-fracture. I probably shouldn’t be walking on it, but Kennedy Meadows is so close and turning around right now is something that doesn’t even cross my mind… Anyway, it will probably get better. At Kennedy Meadows, I’ll go to Lone Pine and see my family and be able to rest it. Part of me thinks it would be relieved if I was forced to quit before the Sierra, so I didn’t have to skip around it.

I’m still grappling and struggling with the idea of a flip-flop as I’m walking. In a way, I’m mourning the compromise, mourning giving up on what I’ve always imagined, of hiking to Canada in an unbroken line, of going through the Sierra as a PCTer. The idea of getting to the monument on the Canada border and not being finished makes me feel sad. But, I’m slowly warming up to the idea of it. Skipping around to somewhere around Tahoe, hiking to the Canada border, then hiking south and ending my hike on Whitney, watching the line of lights bobbing below me in the dark as people try to get to the summit for sunrise. The lights of Lone Pine below in the darkness, the glow growing on the horizon a dusky, muted orange, until suddenly the sun winks above the horizon like a ball of molten metal.

Of course, my foot needs to not die on me if I’m going to do that. Whelp.

Big Sky, a hiker named Outlaw, Twinkle, and I all leapfrog up the hill. I ask Outlaw how he got his name, since I’ve met another Outlaw before the trail, and he just says, “I can’t tell you. It’s a really stupid story, so I just tell people that so it’s mysterious.”

I get up front, in a dry forest now, out of the wind. The trail goes on a forest service road for a couple of miles, MK10. The sun is bright and it’s not too horribly hot, but the shade is inviting. I sit underneath a big bush and discover that the smoked salmon cream cheese can be put to use much better as a dip for Jalapeño Cheetos. After an hour of taking their own breaks, my leapfrog buddies pass me again and I head after them, my shade patch having nearly been depleted.

After less than half a mile, I join Twinkle in another patch of shade. The ground here is littered with Cicada husks. I throw down my sleeping pad and take a nap. I wake up blearily to Twinkle leaving, crawl further up my pad where the shade has moved, and fall asleep again.

I wake up to move my backpack out of the sun, and slowly pack away my things. Big Sky walks by, having just woken up from his own nap a hundred yards down the trail. I pass him, and get my foot in order. Grr.

The walking is easier after taking a break, and I power through a few miles until I catch up to Twinkle and Outlaw as they’re talking. Twinkle and I start talking about peeing, which is a popular conversation topic among female hikers, and Outlaw comically loses interest in the conversation and leaves. Twinkle and I laugh and call after him. “We’ll stop talking about peeing!” we promise, but he just disappears around the bend.

I walk on the next 2-3 miles to the spring. It’s in a big trough, green with algae. Tadpoles swim around, peeping out from under the algae. A PVC pipe carries water from the actual spring and it spills into the trough. The trough is overflowing and spilling water across the trail, making it muddy. I sit with Outlaw and Twinkle Toes, as well as Peaches and Tomas, and Finger Guns and Katherine. Outlaw is apparently perfectly fine with us as long as we’re not talking about female urination, and we joke around. Someone’s left a cache of water bottles at the trough, which we find amusing; a water cache at a water source. We filter water and eat food. I make teriyaki noodles with vegetables, and boil some water for Outlaw, since he’s going stoveless, which makes him happy. I eat the rest of my smoked salmon cream cheese.

Then off we go! Twinkle only wants to go a mile or two further, so she drops off while I hike on, talking with Outlaw. He’s 20 and has taken 2 gap years, traveling around Asia on his own, and is starting college this fall. He says Nepal, Vietnam, and Japan were his favorites. He says I’m the only person younger than him he’s met so far, and I tell him that now he’s an old man.

The sun is below the horizon. I don’t want to go too far with my poor foot, so I fall behind and find a secluded flat spot below a ridge of windmills. I’m carrying a fuzzy black Patagonia jacket we found on the side of the trail and hang it up on a tree for the night to keep it clean. I set up camp on a soft bed of cheatgrass. The moon is full and makes my Tyvek glow.

I just hope my foot gets better and that I don’t make it worse.

Day 44- 3 miles from Tehachapi/ Highway 58 at mile 566.4 to campsite at mile 569.4  

I stretch out under my blanket and get out of bed, Twinkle already up and mucking around in the bathroom. Kelsey texts us and says he’s downstairs with Chris. It’s his birthday today, and Twinkle bought him a little cake and candles at Albertson’s yesterday. We take the elevator down, and I walk around the corner to scout where they are. “I don’t see them, I don’t think they’re here,” I say, coming back around the corner, and Twinkle blows out the candles. Then I see Kelsey’s beard and see them sitting down. He motions at me and mimes to ask me what I’m doing. I walk back around the corner and tell Twinkle that they’re there, and we walk over and sing happy birthday to Chris. He’s so embarrassed, and gives us the stink eye, and everyone laughs it off. PSA: I am a terrible scout.

There are hot cinnamon buns, and I grab some yogurt. I just have a lot of yogurt and cinnamon buns for breakfast. Yay. I sit with Twinkle, Chris and Kelsey, and Chris’ girlfriend and Kelsey’s sister. Then we say goodbye and head back up to our room.

We sit and start packing. I spread the food all over my bed again, and try to separate it into food for my Kennedy Meadows box and food for the next week into Kennedy. I just end up winging it and throwing things into the different piles randomly. I don’t know, I’ll figure it out.

We rush the last hour to finish getting our stuff together. I walk down with my pack and two different bags of food. The plastic grocery bag I have my food in is stretching down and cutting into my fingers as I carry it down to the lobby. I sit at the computer and try to figure out how to print a shipping label out; it says I already have a USPS account for my email address, which I don’t, and I don’t know the username if I do, so Twinkle lets me use hers. I pay for the label and print it out. The really nice younger woman at the lobby desk, Itsel, only has regular tape, so I do my best, then Twinkle runs down to the gas station across the street and brings back packing tape! Twinkle is MAGIC!!! Now I can leave my package here and they’ll give it to the mailman, so I won’t have to stay another night. Whew.

We leave our packs with Itsel, who is super nice and curious about the PCT, and asks how much our packs weigh as we moan about how heavy they are and dramatically carry them over. My right foot hurts when I put pressure on it a certain way when I walk. I hope it’s nothing bad, although a bad foot would certainly solve any Sierra dilemmas.

We walk along the road in the bright sun, a wind blowing and keeping us from sweating. Twinkle half-heartedly throws her thumb out as we are walking, which will most likely not get us a ride. We cross the railroad tracks, and walk down to the Best Western to drop a bunch of stuff off at the hiker box there. Godongo and Zydeco and David, who I met once walking out of Whitewater Preserve and who is now Thirsty Detour, are here, and we all go to get lunch together. The sushi place is closed, and so is the Mediterranean deli, so we walk down the street again to the Mexican place. I order a burrito and we all talk about what we’re doing about the Sierra and how dangerous the passes and rivers are. We pass around reports Twinkle digs up on her phone from hikers who have gone through and who say that it’s Very Dangerous and it’s going to be Bad For A Very Long Time, about stream crossings that are up to people’s chins. I tell them about my alleged route through Owen’s Valley around the worst of it. Or, Twinkle and I might skip up to Carson Pass and start hiking there. I don’t know. But then, people are hiking through! People are posting pictures of the snow. I feel like if I skip the Sierra I’ve failed, I’m a Bad Hiker, I’ve given up and quit, even if I go back and finish it later in the year. I want to experience the Sierra as a PCT hiker, going through in the early season like I’ve always imagined. What am I doing? Everyone seems to be quitting or skipping ahead. How much of the stuff I’m hearing is fear-mongering? How much isn’t?

Afterwards, Twinkle goes to the hair salon to see if she can get a trim, and I walk over to the convenience store to get some more water bottles for a big 40 mile dry stretch ahead. The gas station store smells like incense and there’s Indian music playing. Twinkle and I meet up again at the hotel. Twinkle calls Connie, the lady who drove us back from Albertson’s yesterday, and she says she’ll pick us up in an hour and drive us to the trail head. It feels really weird to call people and ask for things like that, even if they’re more than happy to help out.

I sit around and read blog accounts of hiking through the Sierra in 2011, the last big snow year, until Connie comes. She drives us out of town, the windmills covering the hills like whirling, mesmerizing hordes of insects. I ask her how she feels about them, and she says she doesn’t like them at all.  We get out, and in the distance I see a hiker who’s just hiked in start running towards the car. “Would you want to give someone a ride back? He’s probably pretty smelly,” we say, laughing, as he jogs across the overpass with his backpack on to try and catch Connie before she leaves. Two other hikers come out of the wood works from the north, and Connie seems excited to help out and meet more hikers. Both of her brothers are trail angels but she’s never done anything, even though she’s been wanting to.

Then Twinkle and I head off. Twinkle is complaining about her pack being heavy in her silly dog voice. The trail parallels the highway for a while, then we lose it for a while after a bunch of bee boxes and another water cache that Connie’s brother maintains. We follow a dry creek bed for a while, then climb over a sandy ridge to find the trail.

We make it 3 miles from the road before I find a sheltered camp spot under some Joshua trees for us. I eat a blueberry bagel with smoked salmon flavored cream cheese, which was kind of a mistake, but it’s not inedible, so… Twinkle is feeling grumpy so we compose a Yelp review about the poor hotel amenities at our campsite. No electricity or running water! No continental breakfast! Dirt everywhere!

“Towns are so comfortable to be in, wouldn’t it be cool if you could just live there full-time?” I say.

Katherine and Finger Guns join us to camp. The wind is blowing and tugging at my sleeping bag, and puffing it up with air so that it feels like a sail. Maybe I’ll just blow away.